... way, but rather in the "Hmm I'm slightly curious as to what impression I give off?" I'm aware that most people who know me, or at least what I've understood from them, think of me as 1) smart, 2) sarcastic, 3) nerdy and 4) smart. But as to strangers, it's always been a little quirk in the back of my mind as to what image I present. With the return of The Streak, I'm realizing that a good part of the older generation might see me and think Ne'erdowell!
But that's a generalization. Though it would be completely out of order, I would love to go up to a random stranger and ask what they think. Perhaps I could do it in code, so that it wouldn't be quite so blatant and yet I would get the same response?
This is what, I find, makes it so hard to describe myself. Sure, I can give a quick physical description, but if I were asked what my one distinguishing characteristic was I honestly don't think I could say. What I like most about myself? Beyond me. What one quality I wish I could lose? Another brainmelter.
I may have just taken egoism to an entirely new high (or low, depending on how you see it), but that doesn't bother me. I'll bet that everyone on the planet has the same thoughts, and lots of them just keep it quiet. There are very very very few deeply, sincerely modest people on this planet. There are just some who don't work as hard at hiding it. This would usually apply to me, with the exception of compliments. I can't take them. I don't know what to say, how to respond, what to feel, anything. I usually just smile and turn my head- not the best reaction.
Looking back on this post, my musings are not so much a "little quirk" as it is a sizable obsession. That's not good, now is it. I'll have to work on curbing my curiosity- no matter how non-feline I am, there's no sense in getting killed.
HAHAHAHA. Oh, you future cat man you.
ReplyDeleteI don't remember my first impression of you, but I do know that when we didn't know each other very well I thought you were a snob- but not in a bad way. Snob isn't the word I wanted to use, I don't think. I mean I just assumed you were better than me in the brain-area and you knew it and could be exhausted with my idiocy but I accepted it because you've got to give smart guys a break.
But that's something I often wonder. I've realized that I am the hugest phony ever when it comes to meeting people for the first time. I'm just overly nice and while I don't feel like I'm being fake, it sure sounds like it. Sometimes I wonder if people feel like I'm not being genuine.
I'll start complimenting you more. You should get used to it.
PS - you're a smart sexy fool.